There are times when the world around us seems to swallow us up. We lose sight of who we are and get wrapped up in our past identifications of self. It happens to the best of us and thankfully we are blessed with universal love to send us gentle reminders.
Recently, I have been wrapped up within myself trying desperately to help my daughter. Before that, I had been feeling frustrated with my health and having to go on medical leave to get better and have surgery. In the midst of all this, I have drifted off my path without truly recognizing it was happening. I had been seeing old thinking patterns creeping in and questioning, why? I thought I let go of those and resolved the need for destructive coping patterns. Maybe they were showing up as a reminder to see how far I had come in my personal development. I should feel blessed about my progress and my ability to be open and honest about these feelings and share them with others.
This morning I was sent a gentle universal reminder of my thoughts and actions going off my path. This is not always a bad thing. As I mentioned, reminders of how far you have come in your journey. But as I was waking up, I was nudged to look at my phone. I received a text message from the Qigong healing group I joined a month or so ago as me what I have tried so far in healing myself. I then proceeded to visit the Facebook group and the top two videos were, “Your relationship with money” and “Digestion issues.” Well, with being on medical leave, money is certainly a concern, and considering I am having surgery for a serious hiatal hernia in June, it is safe to say I have digestion issues. The messages were far deeper than that though. It talked about my relationship with money and the relationship I have with myself. These were reminders from the universe that I was veering off-path and losing focus on the self of self.
This all makes total sense. I was falling into the trap of forgetting who I am in this existence. That everything is a learning experience and I need to remember it is all for a reason. A reminder to let go of the emotional attachments to it all and process how it makes me feel so I may return to my true self. This too is an experience and in the end, I am blessed to have them.
It is so important to open your heart to these loving and gentle reminders that God, the universe, or whoever/whatever you follow. (This is not about religious beliefs. It transcends all.) There are times we lose sight and that too is OK. We have the ability to recenter ourselves and go back to self-love. If you feel this is being selfish, that too is a feeling to process and ask yourself why you feel that way. Loving yourself is necessary. you cannot pour from an empty cup.
Today, if you are seeing this, there is a reason why. The universe has been trying to give you direction. Open your heart and your eyes and they will realign you back on your path. Everything will be OK and as it should be.
Since the beginning of this year, I have added a few more courses to my repertoire. I am very excited about this and they will help with my ultimate goal of being of service to others. I will be beginning a course called Trauma-Informed Yoga. The title gives a good idea about its purpose. My heart has always been about helping others recover from traumas throughout their lives. I have been down the road of therapy, inpatients, outpatients, day treatment, etc etc etc. Although those kept me going and gave me some tools to put in my tool chest to help me through tough times, I never felt it gave me hope to recover from the traumas. I didn’t and don’t want to go through life always on guard with my next trigger. I would not believe that this was just my life and I had to deal with it. I have rewired the majority of my thought processes. I have a couple of stragglers there but slowly they are on the way out. I am human and this is all a process of change. I am blessed to have recovered from all the diagnoses I received and collected over the years. I desire to help others do the same. So between this new upcoming certification course and Yoga Therapy, I will have a strong foundation.