Month: September 2023

General Thoughts

Daily Prompt

Pamela

Do you see yourself as a leader?

Growing up, I was painfully shy. Being a leader of anything was not something I ever felt possible for me. The shyness was always the product of a huge lack of self-esteem. In the back of my mind I always wanted to be in some sort of capacity but I believe it was more geared towards wanted to feel like I was somebody in this world.

Fast forward to today, leadership isn’t so much as a goal or desire. I believe it is more that I want to be an inspiration to others. I want to be someone that can help light a spark that anything is possible. Change is possible for the greater good. I have devoted my life now to learning and understanding the Universe and how to find peace, happiness, joy, and above all blissfulness. To help others heal themselves and embody love.

If this ultimately is seen as leadership, that is ok too. If I am able to pave a path for others to follow, awesome! But I want others to walk beside me. I want to be in the trenches of life with others experiencing all it has to offer – Good, bad, or indifferent.

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My Yoga Journey

Pamela

I knew the physical aspects of yoga were going to be challenging. I deal with trauma related aches and pains displaying as lower back pain and arthritis. I also realize I battle with my own self with thoughts that do not serve me. This will be a journey of self-discovery and a lot of inner work. It is a test of my will and determination. I will not give up because I understand the long term benefits both physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Part of my “shadow work” is my desire to finish things quickly. Always feeling I need to hit the finish line now. I believe this comes from being held down not only by others, but by my own false beliefs. These false beliefs came with a very low self-esteem which lead to the act of comparison which of course steals your joy and so my inner work will consist of getting rid of that desire because they only stop me from achieving my own passions and purpose in life.

I have signed up for online courses through Yogamu Institute. I have set goals for myself and will stay the course. I will understand these goals will not happen overnight and they are part of a spiritual journey. I have finished my 100HR Meditation Teacher course so far and working towards my 200HR. In the meantime, I have also began my Yoga courses. (Kundalini is also in my future as these will all work together beautifully.)

This will be my true test by keeping my focus forward, with positivity, joy, and love of self. It has been a hard journey up to now but I can tell you one fact – it has been well worth it!

Be sure to follow me on all my social media accounts to stay up to date and to join me in online live classes in the near future!

General Thoughts

Give up this one word.

Pamela

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly,
what would it be?

I have already given up this one word because I have learned that saying this word only gives you permission to give up if you fail. I’ve learned that “failure isn’t failure if a lesson from it’s learned.” And yes, I’m using a line from an old Garth Brooks song. That one line changed my thinking so well worth it!

If you take out this one word, you will begin to open up a whole world of possibilities. You will begin to stop limiting yourself and the beliefs you have about what is possible for you. I won’t lie, it is not an easy word to give up, but I do promise you, you will thank me later!

The one word is TRY. Yes, the whole, I will try to make my bed every morning. I will try to eat better. I will try to start exercising. Get the picture? Let us remove that word and change the whole feeling of those sentences. I WILL make my bed every morning. I WILL eat better. I WILL start exercising.

Do you feel the power difference between the two options? I know I do! Let’s start today off with:

I WILL REMOVE “TRY” FROM MY VOCABULARY

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How are you feeling right now?

Pamela

How are you feeling right now?

The journey of self-discovery is not a straight path. I can be honest about that fact for sure. There are so many subconscious factors in one’s life that manifest our present and future lives. But the question is, how am I feeling right now?

At the moment, I am feeling the new discoveries on an emotional level and learning to let go. Letting go of things that do not serve us seems like it should be a no-brainer. Easy-peasy. What is the point of holding onto them? Sometimes, even the horrible things, are part of our being. It has become so normal that even the things we would never wish on others, feel safe. Because we know how to cope with them. The thought of an existence of all the things we want to manifest in our lives has a level of uncertainty because in our subconscious, we do not believe it is possible for us.

I look back at everything I have survived in my life, and think, WOW! I am learning to take them as lessons rather than feeling like a victim in my life. I rework my brain to know that I can overcome anything put in front of me. I am strong. Rewiring my brain to focus on my “now” with no judgment, will lead me to a new future that is not based on my past. I use my past as a learning experience to share with others to give them hope and strength.

So to answer the question of how am I feeling right now, I’m battling the letting-go process and rewiring my thinking. This process sometimes puts you in a grieving or depressed state, and that is normal, but pushing through it and not allowing those past thoughts to overtake you is worth the effort. I do not put much thought into the down states and focus on the positives because I know the change will happen. Let me also state, that no matter my circumstances, I continue to keep joy and love in my heart. Everything else is just noise.